Vanished forever but still before me
He found my secret and shared my fear
Always seen but never present
And never to be close again
More than a crush
Not just infatuation
No doubt within my crumbling heart
I was his and he was mine
My love beyond my greatest years
Friendship ruined on fear
A word is gold in the stratosphere
Everything's absence of the one so dear
I love him...
Four years of the silent dove
Four years of reaching held back
Four years of emptiness remaining unseen
Four years of holding one love
Will I find you again
Can I keep tight my reins
Not allow you to see my pain
And though time cannot heal your mark
Can we return